Saying good-bye

Well I am getting the kids things ready for the first day of school tomorrow and I am heartbroken. I would have thought, I did think that I would be ok with this day and be happy to be sending my baby off to school so maybe I could keep the house clean or get that much needed quiet time that I have not had in 11 years BUT I'm not.
It hit me when I started saying goodnight to them and tucking them in Kelsie lost it so I did. She said "Mommy, I don't want to go I want to stay here with you" and you know with my brave mom face on I said "But baby you are going to have so much fun and your teacher is waiting for you" and she said "No mommy, I love you the most so I want you". Talk about a broken heart! I almost bet she could hear it breaking because she kept playing on that.
Time came and we said the goodnight prayers and thanked God for the day and for the days to come that he is blessing us with and Kelsie said "and thank God for my teachers that are waiting at the school for me". I hugged her and walked over to Kaylie's bed and she hugged me and said "you know mom, Kelsie will be ok she will only cry a little like I did and then she will have fun". I said "I know Kaylie but mommy and Kelsie are sad because we have never been apart" and she said "well then it's time like you did me and I was a big girl so she is going to have to be a big girl too".
Talk about two different kids! I love them so much and my world is about to change without them here all day with me. Now Colt starts middle school tomorrow----6th grade! I am scared for him and excited. He has already made friends at the 6th grade orientation thing but I remember how scared I was in middle school. It was much different for me though, I rode a bud from Benbrook to Fort Worth with a ton of mean kids. I went to a rough school there and didn't like it much. I hope Colt finds his path and chooses it in a wise way. I pray for protection and peace to be with him all day. I pray for my friends kids that are facing the same things alone at other schools.
With all this said, I am sad to be saying goodbye to two of my kids in different ways tomorrow morning....Kelsie going into Prek and Colt going into 6th grade. God is going to have to carry me tomorrow, I just hope my load isn't too heavy!