Let me just start by saying that this past week has really opened my eyes and the eyes of others as to how dedicated I am to returning to Zambia. I started taking an oral med that I needed to take in order to go and I was in the 1% bracket of people that experience the major side effects of the drug. ALL week I felt maybe close to the worse I have ever felt in my life. It came in waves so there were times you would see me laughing and cutting up and other times I had to lock everyone out of the bathroom because I felt like I was going to die on the spot. Many nights this week I went to bed crying and right now it is about 3:30 am and I can't sleep because I feel sick again. WHO puts themselves through something like this???
I DO! Simply because I have fallen in love with the people of Zambia and I feel in the very depths of my heart that God has called me to be there sharing his word with those in need.
My mother in law this week told my husband "she must be very dedicated to what she's doing to be taking that medicine and leaving her family." Darn right I am! Does God not call us or rather command us to go and make disciples? Who am I to say no to that because I don't want to feel bad or I don't want to leave what I know is comfortable to me. I'm not a fan or small tubes of toothpaste, I want the big one so I can squeeze it in the middle and hear my husband fuss about it. I LOVE ice with my coke, I love my clothes hanging in the closet, I love having everything I want right there, I love having my dog in my lap while I take an afternoon nap. But what I love more than that is hearing the singing of sweet little children that are waiting on us because they know we have something great to share with them, I love walking up to a dirt house and sitting in the yard talking to the women while 20 village children are walking up to play with your hair, I love walking down the dirt roads meeting new people and praying for them, I love sitting in a church on Sunday morning shoulder to shoulder with the people next to you because everyone wants in that small one room church, I love walking hand in hand with friends that I have made over the past two years just to hear how they are and what God is doing in their lives.
When you ask why I go on missions or you wonder why I'm so dedicated its because my God has placed the heavy burden on my heart to share him with the lost in this world, my battle ground is Africa and I LOVE IT!
So in just around 2 weeks there will be 14 people getting on a flight to head to the other side of the world to love on the people that God has placed in our path. I hope that you will be praying for us as well as the people we will encounter every step of the way. I can not wait to see what God has in store!
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